Happy Mothering Sunday
Happy Mothering Sunday to all the mums in the U.K. and across the globe!
To My Adoptive Mother
(written in adopted child language) by Stacy Manning
On Mother’s Day I can’t just think of You.
I am not sure one person can love two moms,
I wonder if I am supposed to choose...
maybe if I choose her, she’ll choose me this time. I am not good enough.
On Mother’s Day I can’t be only happy that I have you because it means I don’t have her.
I am sad.
On Mother’s Day I can’t just be peaceful
I am so worried I am going to mess up, I don’t understand what is really expected from me;
I just want to run away or crawl in a hole.
I am anxious.
On Mother’s Day I can’t believe I am good enough to have a mom like you.
I know that mothers leave...
Before you leave me I have to push you away so it won’t hurt so much.
I am scared.
On Mother’s Day I can’t feel vulnerable enough
to show you how much I need you.
I will need to create a smoke screen of behaviors, words and choices that will cover that vulnerability up.
I am a survivor.
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