Hey World, I'm Not Angry!

Hey World...

I know to you I may seem angry.  
I speak with grit teeth and furrowed brow.

I know that all too often I am rushing through the moment.
I am short with you.

I know that I have turned away from you exasperated.
I have no patience left.

I want you to know that I am NOT angry.
Not with you, not with my child, not even with myself.

You need to know that angry is the big strong wall that protects how sad and scared I really am! 

I am sad that my child has to suffer so. I am sad that our lives are riddled with emotional fall out. I am sad that I can't fix it. I am sad that you don't understand. I am sad that no one knows how to help my child. I am sad...

I am scared that my child will never feel better, be happy. I am scared that his life will always be this way. I am scared that he will hurt himself or someone else. I am scared I will never figure out how to help him. I am scared my life is falling apart. I am scared...

I need your support. I need you to not judge. I need you to understand that this mission is harder than you think. I need you to understand that I am fighting for my child's future. I have to do it differently than you do. I need you to understand that just because you don't understand doesn't make me wrong or mean. You don't see it all.

The truth is I will continue to do whatever it takes whether you support me or not.
However, I would much rather do it with your support.

I am a good mom. I am not angry. I am a good Mom!

Signed,
The Mom of a child who has come from a hard place.   
(by Stacy Manning)